Beyond the love

Chapter 798: Ma boy oh ma boy ~ baby.

2012-02-01T01:16:00.001+08:00

Nehhhh. So long never update. No time !!!! Studies kept me busy for whole week. Okay. It's february now. Hehe! Okay, time to sleep though ._. Hwaiting! :D

Chapter 797: once again.

2012-01-07T23:07:00.001+08:00

So, thanks for forgetting about me. Haha. Was touched that you offered to cook maggee mee for me but sad that you actually said you forgot about me. I cried again... So much for being a weak girl these few days. Hais, get stronger won't you?! ... Every fall makes me a stronger person. Haha! :) il be alright I hope? Lol. I don't know. Let this be my life. School-study-eat-sleep.

Dying to change class... Change teachers.... Random ...

Chapter 796: Miss how everything used to be.

2012-01-07T20:21:00.001+08:00

This post is gonna be so damn emotional. Sadly lol.

Feels like an unwanted kid. Maybe I really am one? Hah...

When I was young, I've always been praying to god before I sleep, hoping that he really hears me. At times, he really did. So I guess, he's really nice. Mum was my life when I was young. Probably that applies to everyone.... However it's a different case now. I am feeling jealous of my uncles, who has my grandma as mother. She cares and give the best of everything to them. I'm not saying that my mum is bad, she cares for me too, maybe she just doesn't know how to show it. However, at the same time, it makes me feel like she don't. Lol... Or maybe base on her mood? When I was young, she brings me everywhere. Now? Nah, all on my own :) maybe I'm big now and she's busy. she's probably part of a reason why I hate being alone, haha. My results and all, all on my own. No one ever helped me at all, ever since primary 5? I probably made through all these by luck? No one cares how much effort I put in anyways. People are that realistic, the results are all they care for, it's a fact.. Nevertheless, I still love her. I miss my aunt a lot, we aren't that close anymore, since we are no longer living together.... No one in this house really understand how I feel, or no one even bother to. Haha. I'm currently looking strong in their point of view.

Friends. They can't be there forever but yet i wanna thanks them, people who gave me support when I almost couldn't make it. However, some people hypocrites... They are there because they need you and then when they don't, you're kicked aside & they come acting all nice again when they need a request. I just need a few good friends to walk me through together. I mean there are really some great friends like Jialing Zihao and
Melvin, much appreciated.

And you, maybe this is getting plain, but I really wanna thanks you for always being there to support me, though we sort of quarreled a lot, you're somehow always the one giving in. Took care of me when I'm sick, bought me food when I'm hungry and all. So grateful. Yet somehow.... We don't have much things to say now. I still feel that all ___ are the same. Ok.

Feeling so damn emotional now that I even cried lol. Not gaining sympathy since my blog, my say. Right? Feeling so damn unhappy recently... These few days, worst day of the year. Hah.... Just ranting on this blog... Feeling so helpless , Lol.

Chapter 795: First day of torture.

2012-01-03T20:56:00.001+08:00

Sigh. I really can't accept the fact that the class is changed. Really feel like crying as I really miss 2/6'11. After seeing what Zihao said, I teared. "Cuz no u no Mel. Canot accept la me. LOL. Feeling worst than Mel ignore me for whole sep. ._." this really made me think a lot! Seriously miss all those times whereby melvin, my awesome brother, helps me in all my work and when I'm in wonder. Besides, he'lI entertain me and play with me... I swear I miss him a lot, even though we only sat together for half a year. He is like my best bro in this school.... Even though we drifted, I love this brother of mine :)

As for Zihao, I've been sitting with him in higher mother tongue class since secondary 1. He always helped me too. Miss having him around in the class, working hard together....

Jialing, I miss her too! Even though we met like today. Still felt that it's so weird without her being in same class with me. I'm so used to having her in the class, waiting for each other and going to recess together. We only got closer since June 2011, even though we sat together for a year during sec 1... My best sista :( she make me realize that I still have a sister I can count on ...

& what now, all of us are in different class and I really miss all of them......

Nazri Shernice Nadiah Winston Ryan Yenne Fangying JianQun Kelly Gernice Alex Jarvis Douglas Natasha ShiQi Sebastian etc etc ..... I miss all of themmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!

Somehow teared ..... :(
It's okay. Friends will always be friends right? <3...

Hoping :(

First day of school was a torture.... But at least I got to meet my dearests friends ..

Chapter 794: HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

2012-01-01T23:51:00.001+08:00

Hello! First time using this blogger app to update my blog haha! It's been awhile since I update, I'm quite busy? Or lazy! Hahaha. School's starting again soon & I'm currently mugging on my undone homework :( so much for this last minute work. I think I wasted my day today. However yesterday night was awesome ;) anyways went to Johor premium outlet yesterday and it was a total scam! It sucks man, there's nothing to buy and it's super hot like I don't know what?! Damn it. Shall start mugging on my homework now before I really have no time :( haha! Well still, wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

I love you like a love song baby ~

Chapter 793: Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T21:06:00.002+08:00

Aloha! Almost one month never blog already. No one reads anyways, haha.

Today's Christmas & actually it's nothing special. Just like previous years, I'm rotting at home :) Hehe. However, I spent my Christmas Eve at Xinwang Hongkong Cafe with mummy and her co. I received wallet, bag, candle and watch this year! HAHA. Naise yo. (:

Tomorrow's my twin uncle's birthday. Hope they enjoy, hehe. Oh yea, looking forward to counting down with Jiajia darlingsist and darren twinny also sebastian kor? HAHAHA :D so happy! excited max. :)

Well, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :D

Chapter 792: TIREDDDD.~

2011-11-27T01:29:00.001+08:00

Sigh. Feel like blogging that's why I decided to switch on the computer and start blogging. Haha. >:)
A lot of things have been happening nowadays. Happy & Sad stuffs, so much to say. Well, I fell sick. Down with flu and throat infection, ONCE AGAIN. Worst now, coughing. (-_-") Yet... I'm still eating junk food, what a smartgirl. I think I really can't take care of myself, lack of self-control heh.

Okay, so tired of everything.
This particular nightmare that I had few days ago (quite a few days back), make me couldn't fall sleep at night for until now. I was so scared to the extent that I don't dare to bathe when no one's at home, how serious is that?! I even pester my uncle to come home early. That's one of the reason I hate for sleeping alone, I miss my aunt :( ! Such a big baby, who needs people to pacify, sighhh... I guess I'll never grow out of it?...

Yup I really miss those days where me and my aunt share the same room. Whereby at night I would complain to her and talk so much until she ask me to shutup and sleep! HAHAA :D Miss her to the max now!!! :(

Shall sleep soon before sickness get worst. sigh. I MISSED THE OPEN HOUSE ANWS..

Chapter 791: People like this should just die!

2011-11-20T20:18:00.001+08:00

5 Days later and here I am! HAHAH :) Disappointed readers? Hehe. Sad uh.. Have been feeling not bad these few days compared to previous week, HAHA! :) Good I guess. Had our choir concert on the 18thNovember2011. I think the stage's pathetic.. It's okay, I believe we'll perform our own concert at a bigger stage next time! :D dtwl was there to support with his friends ~ Hah! I think the concert's rather enjoyable too.. hmm.. ? Next performance is at the School's Open House on the 26th November, haha! :) Hope it would be fine! (:

Seriously hate guys like THAT. just fuckoff okay? I don't open door for dog, throw face. TSK.

How sweet can it be? For someone to appear within an hour after calling the person up, saying you had a nightmare. ♥

Chapter 790: Paranoid hurts.

2011-11-15T23:23:00.001+08:00

Back to blogging once again. Been so lazy to use computer ever since I've signed the data plan for phone. :) Haha! I think I haven't been really making full use of my holidays. Well, this comes once in a year and I'm thrashing it like this, laughs.

So yeah. life has been real GREAT...

Oh at least I learned that It is better to be alone though. Just like #foreveralone, haha! Okay so what am I talking about? Ah crap. This holidays was all about cca cca cca. Right, besides that stil had some badminton days with same clique of people. Followed by class outing which was an awesome one though most of them didn't turn up, kinda forfeit the purpose of having a CLASS outing hmm? However, I think it was still an enjoyable one. Everyone was riding bicycle, together! :) Survivals with Nazri Alex Sebastian Elcoms Boonjie Gernice Winston after that & went for dinner @ Burger King with them, Had alot of laughters too, at MRT which was quite epic because of the topic that we were talking about, people were looking at us, keke.

Feeling moody this few days too. Mix feelings bah, like happy? like sad? Probably I'm having depression, wow. HAHA. Okay, that's rubbish. -_- I bet no one reads my blog anyways, except for some STALKERS hmm? :) Who cares, my blog my say, hah.

I'm so not looking forward to school. Yeah, I hate school & as well as people in it. I hate myself most, claps! :D I really don't want to see my new classmates, so not interested or excited. SERIOUSLY?! Cause I already know & regret knowing. Ohmymama, should have gone to geog? I miss my awesome sister! :( Jialing.. Forget it, hopefuly all my good friends and I will stay in contact bah! :) Life right? Have to learn to move on & accepts changes..... I just want to be happy luh okay. :')

Grandpa looked at my hand today. He said my life line is quite long~ Also, I think a lot, making myself very troubled. HAHA. I AGREE. Paranoid hurts though. It just hurts ah you know you know? Haha, crazy. :) I must admit it's really quite hard to pretend that you're happy, smiling and putting a ":)" in every message. Haha, oh well. that's what I'm good in, isn't it? :D Haha! I will blog again soon I guess. Hopefully I will be truely happy soon, because I really don't know what I want anyways... (:

BTW I HAD A TALK WITH GRANDMA AND GRANDPA TODAY, THEY ARE SO CUTE. HEHE :D I miss mummy tooooo :\

Chapter 789: What doesn't kill me makes me stronger.

2011-11-05T20:49:00.001+08:00

Shall just post without any pictures since I'm using my phone to post now. haha!This few days have been great for me.Monday- chinese cultural camp. was fun! Get to play in the rain with Jialing! HEHE.Tuesday- badminton day! With alex darren yongjun melvin kelly shernice jianqun. uber uber fun. yeahyeah! :) so long never play until so shiok hahaha! Yay! :D soooooo naise haha. wanna play again! :)Wednesday/Thursday/Friday all cca days haha! Gambateh, concert on the 18th >

Chapter 788: Sec 2 Camp! 2/6.

2011-10-26T16:17:00.001+08:00

Hello! I'm back from camp yesterday :) It's been a long time since I even posted. Hah! I seriously miss 2/6 & Instructor Irwan now. He is super nice I swear! :(

First day of camp, went to report to school & sang national anthem as usual. Had ice-breaking game and I thought that our instructors are boring but I was wrong, Hah! :) Changed into our wet attire. Bus came & went to Jalan Bahtera and then to our 5 STAR HOTEL. HAHAH! Hut 4 was quite good uh. Chose the place closest to the campfire pit to sleep, which was quite awesome (:

Lunch ~ Our first activity was Kayaking If I am not wrong. MrWong just sat there with his awesome chair. LOL! It's super muddy I swear. Partner with Jialing! :) Had water bravery test, floating on water, fun! When me & Jialing Kayak like so funny, left right~ Was made to sing stand up, clap and sing our school song (._.)! It is super fun & it is the most memorable one to me.

Went to bathe, so shiok ah! The toilet is not as dirty as thought. Changed into track pants and went for the Low Elements. Climbed the high wall, so damn pain please! :| After that, did the swinging of tyre, cool. Hah! Went for high elements, so brave :P did the steps one. Hoho! Keep suan the instructor, he laugh until damn unique, can still remember! :)

After that, went to prepare for campfire. Cheers & Dance. Kind of epic, haha! Winston's super funny. Me & Jialing sat at one corne before eating. Instructor Justin came over and randomly talked to us, HAHA! Like a weirdy x.x but he's friendly I guess. (: After dinner, campfire. ^-^ We were the last to perform :) At least we did try though, Haha! After campfire, bathed again! Run with Jialing to toilet just to refill water and we regretted so much because we perspired again & It's so super warm luh! :(

Met Darren and we chatted. Back to the hut, me and Jialing ate sweets and text text. I was texting with Nazri Darren Melvin Sebastian Jerol Kelly and Jialing (even though she's just beside me!) That cute girl saw the light flickering and said that Jumby was here, She end up being scared, AHAHAH! She's like a small girl~ :D I couldn't really sleep but end up sleeping at 1am. Woke up in the middle of night once and finally at 0550am.

So it's Day 2.

Jialing Natasha Kelly Shiqi Iffah & me went to bathe, suprisingly, we were the first few HAHAH!!! Can get the toilet for as long as we want yo. Changed into Pe Shirt & Track pants again. Ate breakfast (._.)! after that went to gather~ Did Abseiling! I WAS DAMN SCARED I SWEAR. STILL, managed to survive, heh! Rest and chat a lot, HAHAHAHA! Instructor Irwan damn nice. His race is so unique sial, Malayee. His father Malay/Indian, Mother Chinese. Kewl right (: He can speak fluent Chinese though. Hehe. Awesome max. Sat down and rest rest, chat chat for quite long. Played with Melmel! Went lunch and followed by gladiator I think~ It's quite fun, haha! then low element but I didn't do and Instructor Irwan was so awesome, he did not scold us, heh! I really miss that instructor now! We were tired and he allowed us to rest and we chat with him alot~ Hah! High elements afterwards but It rained, AWESOME OR WHAT?! :| Sat near the MPH and I almost fell asleep ~ Hah!

Changed and followed by area cleaning~ Cleaned the instructor's boys toilet. Only helped to refill water anyways. Guys did all the job. :\ Saw Instructor Justin again and he talked to us again~ Shiqi & Kelly said that they are twins and he really believed, HAHAHAH. :D Packed up and went to assemble. Bus back to CCKSS. Rest at gate there with Nazri Darren Jialing Kelly. Nadiah and Kanna came!!!!!! ^_^ Instructor Irwan came to talk to us, for the last time! :( Yeah, talked to MrGoh & I realised, everytime after I talk to him, I will learn something. Headed home and bathed for 45mins, HAH! My shoulder was red due the the carrying of heavy bags, now it's aching... Fell asleep but mummy woke me up to eat & finally get to sleep at 10plus. Yeah, that's the end I guess. Feel so tired now still!!!!!!! :\

Overall, I feel like it's worth going. Talked more with Melvin, Jialing. Glad! HAHA :D

Last day of school tomorrow, hope it turn out well. (Y)

I LOVE 2/6!

OH YEAH. Forget to mention about SEP. :)

Got into badminton for SEP with Shernice & Coach was really nice (:

Learned something I guess~

Chapter 787: Your love, makes me stronger.

2011-10-15T22:30:00.000+08:00

& I think I just need a break. :)

Felt so tired of everything, like seriously.. Now that it's finally a time to rest! hah. Have been slacking off at home for the past few days & glad that I'm really really recovering! :P

Stomach feels so unwell today, super unwell :(

Probably due to period. So open? Nah, It's science! Hoping to find get some job during the holidays, hmm. Hopefully? (: Really have to spend holidays wisely you see, Sec 3 next year. -_-! Rather looking forward to this year's camp, hope that 2/6 can really treasure last few days together. ): ! I love my class, despite all the things that happened!!!!!!

Chapter 786: 2nd 14th/ Eoy done!

2011-10-14T20:47:00.001+08:00

Aloha, examinations finally ended! :)

I think the feeling is damn shiok, but I wonder what will the results be like ): Alright, shall not think of the worst yet. I think I kind of want to thanks Zihao for all the encouragement he given to me when I wanted to give up~ Fell sick during examinations. Fever, Flu, Cough, lack of none. Cool? Haha! Glad that everything's over & I'm recovering! After recovering, I'm gonna play like-a-mad-girl :D Okay, shall go off!

Saranghaeyo~

Chapter 785: Love.

2011-09-30T23:37:00.002+08:00

Chapter 784: Fuck this life of mine.

2011-09-29T19:37:00.003+08:00

yooosh. came back for an update about these few days.
I've been cooking for the past few days & finally. HomeEcon practical, CLEARED! Yeah~

Thi was cooked at Kelly's house with Jialing Shernice Jianqun. Consist of Brown rice, Tofu, Sausage, Crabmeat, Chicken Fillet, Broccoli, Cabbage, Onion, Garlic, Spring Onion & I forgot what. Yummy :D

Yesterday, at Jialing's house ^-^! Consist of White Rice, Chicken fillet, Crabmeat, Sausage, Egg!

This is what I cooked! :| Hmm.. not really that nice in appearance! But nevertheless, it's yummy to me, cus I cooked it okay! :) Consist of Brown Rice, Crabmeat, Chicken fillet, Sausage, Spring onion, Onion & Garlic.

Wasn't really in the mood today. Was so tired, so fed-up. Really! I hate to say this, but I'm feeling so depressed over a chinese test. 28/50 when I actually read it. Nice or what? :(

I don't feel saying about it anymore. Yes, from now I should just blog out my feelings instead of telling people. Even though it couldn't give me any comments, I could write whatever I want to. Bloggy, I sincerely love you~

Chapter 783: ohmy, damn you.

2011-09-27T20:20:00.003+08:00

DAMN THIS REALLY. HATE THIS SCHOOL ..

Just screw it. okay? .. I really really wanna study one. This is so stressing me up.. It's like, history, geography, literature, home econ.......... chinese, english. ALL. Sucks to be me? Everyone's going through this too. Shall just try to work hard for this 2 week. I can do it? Can I really do it? .. I hope I can.

You know.. It's really saddening that you tried so hard and yet no one sees your effort & at the end, what you've gotten is just rubbish. Pure rubbish. It's really so disappointing, not about others, but yourself. No one knows how it feels right now.

Went to cook at kelly house with shernice jianqun jialing today. turned out quite nice. cooking tomorrow again with jialing~

Chapter 782: 真心换绝情

2011-09-27T00:09:00.006+08:00

You fell asleep today again as usual~ I'm the only survivor now, ugh.
Kept on falling asleep... after only reading a chaptor of science, sucks pretty lot hmm.. need to finish up the summarising of flour baby before I can sleep peacefully ^-^.

Hoping that someone will wake up suddenly, or anyone can online now to accompany me to chat, hehe. Wait long long uh . :(

School's fine. Went to buy bubbletea with Kelly after school and checked out the ingredients we're buying tomorrow for the try-out of cooking. ~ Wednesday gonna cook again I guess, with jialing. Hehe, hopefully turn out well. yumyum ~

Oh yeah. Remember about the letter-writing for many days? :) Gonna continue about it, so I've topic to write in my blog yo.

4. My dream.

When I was young, I just wanted a perfect love story, thinking how sweet it is that there's always a happy ending in fairytales. probably that's naive. As I grew up, It didn't became reality & yet, sort of a nightmare. Sweet dreams got shattered. Here, I'm still hoping to find the right person, maybe when the time is right. ;)

My biggest dream wasn't that.
It is to live forever with my mummy & now, my whole family. Call it greedy or what. Everyone have to leave when the time is right, but just let me continue this dream~ I love them.

For youyouyou. It's great to have you here.

Chapter 781: Excruciating pain.

2011-09-25T13:12:00.007+08:00

I miss watching Hello Baby. I started loving every single one of them when I finished watching it, kewl. Yooguen's so fortunate to have shinee as appas. weeeeee.

Right now. I'm currently worrying about my Home Econ's practical exam. Oh-nononono! I can't cook.. ): ! My family say I won't be a good wife anyways, HAHAHA!!! Cause I can't cook, I don't do housework, I don't wash my own clothes, I don't mop & sweep my own floor. oh-yeah. I think I'm just a pampered little girl ~ & they say that next time my husband must hire a maid for me. trueeeee, hahahaha! okay, rubbish. delon uncle's going to book in at night, sad... hope to see him soon again ^-^

Gonna eat, do homework & revise nowwww. xoxo.

Chapter 780: You've changed me.

2011-09-24T23:00:00.004+08:00

Can't believe that I'm slacking for the whole day. Oh-so-pathetic! Should really get into studying mood soon, really. Wasn't feeling well just now. Argh. Changing phone soon as I'm renewing my contract with M1 :o Mom said she's still deciding whether she should sign data plan for me, say I so naughty etc. Hehe. I kept on persuading her saying I'm such a goodgirl. HAHAHA, okay fake. She say she'll decide after she come back from Taiwan. Hoping for good news!

Since mummy's being so nice. I should be a good girl and start studying so I don't disappoint her with my results, right? ^^

You, have changed me.

I don't know how much I can give back but you never asked for more. It's probably due to the previous experience for what I am now. So indecisive, paranoid & yet you endured.

Chapter 779: Love like oxygen.

2011-09-23T00:54:00.003+08:00

It's currently 1:03am now. Any idea why I'm awake? I'm studying a little for literature and Science for tomorrow's practical & lit's test. However, it's not enough. I haven't start on geography, history or even literature's book. OMG. Such a slacker when I've only 2 weeks left. Aww. Shall spam on Saturday, gogogo! :)

Still have to plan how to cook my Home Econ dish. It sucks to be me ~ Oh yeah, tomorrow's cca. HELL HAPPY -_-!? Okay, sarcastic hah. Hopefully tomorrow things turn out well yo. Finally it's Friday, which means SLEEPING DAY :)!!!

Mommy Granny and Uncle is going to Taiwan! I want to go >:(
Why must it be near EOY dates, arghhhhh. But, I asked mum to bring me there next time :P! HAHAHA. Okay can. Delon uncle is going to book out later, yay! Gonna have him in the house for next 2 days, yipeeee. Shall sleep! Goodnight :)

Chapter 778: Seeyou Aunt.

2011-09-19T18:36:00.002+08:00

HAVE A BLISSFUL MARRIAGE, DEAR AUNT.

I swear I love my aunt, she's a very good aunt to me. Not only a aunt, she's also my listener. Was looking at how happy she was yesterday. The prettiest bride ever. I want another cousin! :D

I slept at 5am on saturday & woke up at 750am. Faster prepare and headed to Jovan uncle-in-law house with Chanel sis and Dillon uncle. :) Haha, yiyi's so pretty~ hmmm. went home by limbo (a long car) & rest on bed. Called dumby to chat. haha! Went to bathe & prepared afterwards, delon uncle came home! :) he look so cool & handsome in army outfit you know! Sat limbo to the hotel, how awesome is that? It's probably my first and last time sitting on it! Aww.. Saw my aunt! SHE'S SUPER PRETTY I SWEAR !!! Picture speaks a thousand words. People always say that the bride is the prettiest, hehe. Took some photos with props, by the photographer. Also, took picture using uncle's polaroid. Kewl. Home at 11pm & was real tired. I have to even change my bedsheet and study for test D: But it's okay! worth it. Hope to see my aunt and uncle soon!

Few pictures taken from facebook ~

Finally a picture with my uncles and cousin. Delon uncle's back! Only for yesterday. Glad to see him & he had learned to think more maturely. :)

ENDING OFF WITH 2 RETARDED FACES OF MINE~

Chapter 777: Soon...

2011-09-17T14:59:00.003+08:00

Haloooooooooooooo.
Felt like blogging as I'm kind of bored Yes, bored. School have been really tiring for me, as I've been sleeping real late. Studying for test and somehow revising a little here and there. Still, I'm quite lazy yo. Fell asleep at 9.30pm yesterday while texting and watching tv, lying on the bed.. Can see how tired I am... goodluck, exam's coming...

Tomorrow's my aunt's once in a lifetime wedding ceremony. Yea, I know I'll kind of miss her. Ever since I'm born, she's there with me even up till now. Even though she's already staying at her husband's house now~ She's coming home today and we're going out later.

My aunt's a pretty good person. Still remember that when we're young, she often bring my cousin, uncles and me out for supper and buy things for me and my cousin. She bought us a fake "handphone" which up till now, My cousin and I still remember. We even played blogcatching with one of her friend we named "gongkia". My childhood mostly consists of my aunt, uncles and cousin. It's kind of weird though, that she's getting married, but I hope she'll be happy.

& even all this happen.......................

YEAP. SHALL BE HAPPY :)

recently, emotionally unstable.
hoping to be back to normal again, feeling like !@#$%$

Chapter 776: Thai trip :D

2011-09-12T19:31:00.003+08:00

Remember I said I went to bangkok? Was back on the 10th but didn't feel like blogging until now ..

Hmmm.... I wrote sort of diary about everyday in my phone and pieces of paper. Shall write it out in here.

5th September 2011:

First day without texting.. 11plus reached Changi Airport, the food in the plane sucks hell lot!!! Went to check in at Grand Diamond Hotel at around 5plus (Singapore's time). Mummy was so mad at that hotel manager for giving us the room that we don't want. Mom had already booked the 13th floor but they gave us 12 instead as they claim that the room is full -_-!!
Went to shop around at Platinum, there were stuffs that I'm interested in, but mummy said we'll get back to it the next day. Bought a home shoe + pens at the shop. Haha, the pen are so comfortable to use! Went to Isetan to shop afterwards, like all branded stuffs :o Went back to hotel and on the way, bought a sort of jeans~ Went to eat and massage, felt so molested (._.")

6th September 2011:

Woke up feeling a little sorethroat. Bathed & went to eat. Shopped around and bought a jeans + top. >:D love it ^-^! Went back to the hotel and mummy was pissed as we were unable to change room againnnnnn. After resting, went to Siam Paragon by cab. Mum shared about her first boyfriend :D Something funny, I got lost o.O! Hahahah. bought a pink earpiece ~ It's 8pm here now. Just ate at Auntie Anne's, so yummy! :D Drank coffee, too much I guess, that I felt like vomiting :| Hoping that the hotel room doesn't change to 17th as I've to sleep aloneeeee ):

7th September 2011:

Woke up a few times today, couldn't sleep well. Keep hearing kpop songs to fall asleep yesterday. Changed room to 1303, have to sleep alone.. Called for room service, ate Pineapple Rice & Club Sandwich, share with mummy & we dranked watermelon juice. Went to Union mall, only bought a shorts. Hahah! Went to somewhere else and bought a Robot necklace, cute. Now eating at Cold Stone icecream there. 2 days already spent 1k plus Singapore dollars! What's worst is we didn't buy much. Mummy told me about that bastard, well well..~ & It's so funny when we only wanted a plastic bag for our water, the person go wrap until like don't know what. HAHAHA! He thought we want to bring it home. :|

At night, had a heart to heart talk with mummy. Understand quite alot. Yeah, I should be independent, don't always rely on people. "Treat everything that people gave you as a bonus, with it or without, can still survive." That's what mummy told me. :) 2am now, just finished Thai Oil Massage, felt so molested!!! Watching powerpuffgirls at hotel room now :P (Y)

8th September 2011:

Fourth day was quite a stupid day I guess. Woke up feeling so tired like don't know what! Ate at platinum mall and guess what? A little boy popped a balloon by pulling it. Cute or something? :P Mum was the one who bought the most things today ^_^. Only bought 2 sets of pyjamas & a piece of clothing. HAHAHAH :D So pissed... I placed the bottle of water into my bag and it spilled, make until my phone & the sensor spoiled :@ Can't type = can''t sms. F it ttm. Hopefully at home, uncle got spare phone ~ Hate school. Tomorrow's the fifth day! Have to go to airport early at 5am! HELL. :(

9th September 2011:

Last day @ here. Haha. Morning or you say, afternoon around 11am plus woke up and ate at platinum, rice with curried chicken :D Bought 2 necklace. Went to a place with 7th story, bought food. Ate at KFC, popcorn chicken ^-^! Just had THAI massage for the leg. TIRED TTM! Heading to airport at 5am like that, Flight at 8am. Sucks that my phone is spoilt?! Having pineapple rice again :P Watching powerpuffgirls!!!!

10th September 2011:

Went to airport after only 2hours of sleep! :| After alighting, texted people. Ate at a restaurant at the Airport. Hmm, headed home & slacked for the rest of the day. HAHHAA! :D

11 September 2011:
Went to Orchard with Grandma, Big Uncle Dillon. So sad :( ! Small uncle, Delon went to Army. BUT WTF? He took my school bag along. Seriously fucked up you know :@ Kay, so went to orchard to get my uncle's stuff. Dined at Xinwang's Hongkong Cafe. My awesome uncle then realise that his flight was today. WOW, he thought it was tomorrow. HAHAH! So funny please. Trained back to Lot one with him while grandma go somewhere else. He bought his waterbottle and stuff and he accompanied me to go and cut hair. Haha. :) Yea, at around 8pm, he went.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. TODAY WAS SCHOOL AND I WAS HELL SLEEPY. DONE :D

TADA, RETARDED KID. HAHA.

Chapter 775: A break from everything :D

2011-09-05T02:47:00.004+08:00

Aloha!

Postpostpostpostpost. Hehehe! Going to airport in like 6 hours time, flying to bangkok with mummy for 6 days 5 night! Finally ah finally. ;)

But.........................................................

have to finish up my homework asap, so you can imagine me doing my homework for like don't know how !#$%^$%#$@#! long? NO PAIN, NO GAIN! HAHAHAH. (^~^)

Recently so addicted to B2ST's Badgirl, Say No & 2NE1's Lonely. Say no no no no no! Like-a-bored now. Doing english homework, feel like sleeping. Should I????? Hmmmmmm... Hoping that the trip will be fun, hehe. So long since I've been on the plane though, well well. At least it's a break from everything, especially school! *thumbs up*

Come back and start mugging towards exam & others. Shall stop being a lazy girl! (:

Wait till I'm back alrights! loveee.

Chapter 774: Heartpain.

2011-08-27T23:19:00.005+08:00

Haven't been posting for so so so so so so so long..

Feeling so bad now I can feel the heart pain & I don't know why.

Went to Orchard today with Mummy Grandma Aunt & her husband. Went to Lucky Plaza and then to Ion Orchard, to find mummy's Rolex watch that she want to buy. It took so long and I almost starved to death. Ate at Crystal Jade @ 1pm. Went to shop shop around but I didn't buy anything, such a goodgirl?

How I hope mummy can just say OK to overseas during September holidays. I'm really desperate to leave this place for a break. *sigh.. ttm.

Feel like don't know what now. No one understand, even me.

Hoping there's a shoulder to cry on now, even without saying anything, it's fine. Yet, crying doesn't help in anything isn't it? I know...

Chapter 773: Assume.

2011-08-05T23:23:00.003+08:00

Hello! Here to post again, after a long long long time :) ABRSM Choir exam was on the 1st August, I think we did not bad, we tried. smileeeeeeees. (:

A lot of happy + unhappy stuffs happened recently. Okay, I seriously don't want to give a damn anymore, continue assuming, because I really did nothing. I explained, but if you choose to think wrongly again, so be it. I've nothing to say~

Well, just want everyone around me to keep smiling. smile, it's nice.

Chapter 772: I told myself..

2011-07-27T21:49:00.005+08:00

Hello! back to post :)

Went to railway track with Kelly & Darren on the 23rdJuly. Many funny things happened :P I enjoyed a lot with them. The railway track is seriously boring so we went to Coffee Bean to drink coffee! drinking coffee with a straw, I bet none of you tried that or maybe a few? :P BECAUSE, I DID IT. HAHAHAH! It's so nice, yummy (^~^). We had problems thinking where to go next. Well, we eventually went to Causeway point just to walkwalk & went to Yishun Northpoint for dinner & headed home. The journey is fun, lots of laughter haha. First time out with dabben twin! :D

Oh yeah.
Yesterday, 26/7/11. Did our cip & it sucks a lot. Got scolded by teacher when it's not our fault? Being the one that's inconsiderate (shouting at us under the block) actually scolded us "BUNCH OF IDIOTS & INCONSIDERATE" Can you please get the facts right before scolding us? We were really pissed. What a CIP Day? I'm complaining a lot recently though! Jialing buddy & Darren twinny were listening to all my grumble yesterday, HAHAHA! Listening ears :)

Today had lessons followed by cca. Tests & tests & tests! Went for recess with Jialing, gossip gossip (not much actually!) haha. before cca start, saw Darren again! Accompanied him to walk to new block! or you can say, he accompanied me :P hahaha. well well. almost fell down, same reason why i almost fell down outside 2/5 clasroom.... 2nd time today! paiseh to the max ):

Alright, nothing much to write! Just to keep my blog alive but well, no one reads this blog anyways. :)

Chapter 771: Another 1707.

2011-07-17T23:27:00.009+08:00

Today's 170711. Things are not the same anymore. The same date last year was a happy day for me. Well, time passes and things changes right? Now that i know, I'll try moving on further~

Woke up in the middle of the night thanks to someone (y'know) for texting me & my phone was on general, so I thought it was my alarm clock. What was stupid is that I didn't even set any alarm! :@ Was so damn tired! Fell asleep after that and finally woke up at 2pm :\

Went to Gym on the 16th with Shernice & Jianqun, I never thought than gym can be so fun! hahaha, I like I like :) Went Long John Silver (my loveee!) for lunch at Causeway Point.

After I reached home, went to swim @ CCK Swimming Complex with Uncle (mummy's boyf). Was trying to learn how to swim freestyle but I end up drinking lots of water, it sucks! :(

Keep swimming and swimming just to make myself tired to the max because something happened. Yea I know now, Friends....

Texted with Darren Shernice Nadiah Melvin & Nazri yesterday. (Y)

Slept at 12am, so so so so so tired!

School tomorrow, boring???

Received, Shocked but Happy.

A text changes one's mood.

It's another brand new day ahead.

Chapter 770: 我们之间

2011-07-13T23:33:00.003+08:00

& I probably won't be the one who have the courage to do all these things.

Decided to blog cause I am feeling down right now. It seriously sucks when you're happy at this moment and then sad at another.

Felt happy during lessons and my mood got spoiled during cca, no idea why too. Went home & was happy because chatting with grandma etc but there comes a problem, my stomach start to hurt non-stop which made me super unhappy. After that, some things happened again. What a day?

Seriously, no life. I mean I have no life -_-

I really don't know why. Whenever I found myself some trustable and good friends, we would always end up drifting apart. I guess this is reality. I feel like asking why, why when I trust and put in so much, I end up falling over and over again.

It's okay ah. Learn to keep things to myself, independent is the word.

currently just expressing my feelings. My blog, my say.

Please don't take someone for granted, just because she/he doesn't say anything. It doesn't mean that she/he don't mind, it's just that keeping it to yourself is better than stirring up unnecessary troubles.

Chapter 769: A weird feeling.

2011-07-03T16:14:00.004+08:00

It's really confusing. Just like what people says: 人心难测.
I don't know what I am or feeling right now. Like-a-split-personality. LOL. Crazy me.

Nowadays feeling quite empty like don't know what to do, everything feels so weird and I felt lonely at a point of time. Depression?! HAHAHAHA.

Friends friends friends? No one understands you at all, No one knows how you feel.

Humans are selfish in a sense, it's our human nature.

I really don't know how to communicate with people nowadays. I just simply want some friends who I can talk to, just listening to me is more than enough. It's just hard to find someone like this now.

They always say that they'll be there, the fact is that they will never be when you're at the lowest point of your life. Really don't know what to do or say. weird-weird-weird...

Feeling like !#$$^%#$@!

It's easy to put on a smile yet it's hard to put on one from the bottom of your heart. Every smile on one's face, could be fake. You'll never know how he/she truly feels in the heart.

Chapter 768: EXCITING HOLIDAYS, boring school ._.

2011-06-26T00:45:00.009+08:00

Went to do IPW project with the people above, I think during the 2nd or 3rd week of holidays. We're suppose to take pictures about World War II but we ended up taking more photos of us than the photos needed for the project, funny max!

Left the 3 of us, went to buy drinks, slack and went home :)

Our babies, lovelove!
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1st week of Holidays: Went for CCA + slack at home.

2nd week of Holidays: Slack at home I think almost everyday :\ + Go to school for Supplementary & CCA, Swimming @ CCK Complex with Mindyong. ALSO, COUSIN CHANEL CAME OVER TO STAY :D

3rd week of Holidays: Went out with Jialing to Fareast Plaza, Do IPW project with Kelly Kenneth Kanna Shiqi, Swimming session with Grandma @ Jurong.

Last week of Holidays: Swimming session with Grandma @ Jurong, Shopping at Orchard with Grandma & Cousin, Went to mummy's new office for her stocks & offered a little help!

etc, etc.

During the June Holidays, I went out with my friends, family. Swimming with ahma during the 3nd & 4th week of holidays, are the best! :) Super fun + funny. It's been so long since I went to swim with her. x) Went to orchard, bought bebe's shirt + slipper. There are quite few things I can't really remember but yeah.

I suppose that this June holidays are rather packed compared to the previous June holidays that I had. The previous one, I've been all the way slacking at home! At least now, I'm being more active like swimming, shopping etc. :)

& I'm like totally tanned, oh dammit. :| I requested for new phone! & mummy said, wait for my contract to end + see my results first (No Cs, POSSIBLE???). haha. I want Iphone, for it's convenient. I'm also saving up money! :) Hopefully I can buy a better phone even if it's not an Iphone ^_^

Soooooo yeah. School's starting in another day! It's Sunday since it's already past twelve. I just hope that I'll do well this semester, PROVIDED WITH A GOOD PARTNER K. Just hoping it'll go back to original arrangement. *hopehope. Gambateh! ^-*

Was talking about this topic with Darren twinnynyny through sms chat. We were like all scared about not getting in contact with people after graduating from cckss. SOOOOOOOOOOO...............

Chapter 767: Gambateh !

2011-06-07T16:30:00.006+08:00

I've just finished watching this drama. God of study/Master of study.

SUPER NICE PLEASE? I watched it in chinese version cus I think it's nice in chinese version~ hehehe. It's really an awesome show.

Also, watched this show around end of May. I came across it with random search & watched it cause there's JimmyLin. He's damn awesome, cute + handsome guy. Love him ttm since My Lucky Star, I even watched like a lot of times since I've the disc, HEHEHEH!! :D

Went to swim @ CCK Swimming Complex with MindyOng today, I love swimswimswim. HAHAHAHA :) We went to Lot1 to meet Belinda for lunch @ Food Junction & took 302 home. Although it's not a long day, I'm tired but also happy. Hehe. Finally get to swim. Yeah! :P Tomorrow there's UNSW ENGLISH. It's oh-so-boring. :(

I've always wanted to share this.

I really feel sad for those old people, who seems strengthless & have to carry lots of things they bought from market etc. OR EVEN, carrying bags for their grandsons and granddaughter. It's hard on them isn't it?

& I envy little kids. I was taking bus 307 few days back and there's this little boy who sat behind me, getting excited of what he saw during the bus ride. I thought that it was rather fortunate that they get excited even during a bus ride, having hopes towards each day. Whereas people like me, have no feelings towards such things & doesn't have any hopes towards each day. I really really envy them & yet we can't turn back time.

Chapter 766: It didn't work.

2011-05-28T00:26:00.007+08:00

Just wanna post without pictures. I've been really drained out for the week. Went for ptm today with mummy and before that, we had Mos Burger for lunch. I already know my results yesterday since I went to find Miss Ng with Ryan and Winston. Was feeling kinda alright with the results except that my 4 main subjects dropped somehow. Position 16. Mum? She wasn't satisfied. I shall say she never had been satisfied with my results anyway. I was actually kinda sad about it and I texted Darren and Nadiah. Thanks for being there :)

Really thanks pipi twinny for being there always to listen. He's really an awesome friend. Yup, I hope I don't trouble him...
So yeah, I've been a failure in life & I always know that. I really don't know what to do. Just realized how pathetic I am that I sort of have No one to go to when I'm down at the lowest point. Blame who? Me. Hahaha whatever. I don't care anymore, seriously it sucks being in this world anyways. I may seem negative, but it's a fact isn't it?! LOL.

Mum was flipping through old photos and I saw alot of funny pictures, HAHAHA!!! grandma looked damn cute back then when she was at her teenage years. Mum looked funny too! Hehe. Saw alot of pictures of my aunt uncles cousin and my pictures. Cute :D Mum just gave me my album, with many of my pictures from a baby to a toddler. Gonna view it now and put on in a safe place! Goodnight :)

Chapter 765: Conscience

2011-05-19T16:40:00.002+08:00

Heyhey! Currently posting using IPod touch, yeap. Shall update about what had happened recently. Okay, so it was a holiday on Tuesday, I went to wild wild wet and got myself total sunburn! That seriously sucks as it hurts hell lot ?! Omg manzxc. First time in my life that I got such a serious sunburn, pain die me (>.<)! arghhhh~ hope I faster recover because look like a charcoal now eh? Hurry recover please ~ it's hurting even when I'm bathing. Omfg :/ oh yeah! After that went to bowling and then Seoul garden for dinner, heheh!

Didn't go to school on Wednesday as the burns really hurt me and due to fatigue, I couldn't wake up at all! Hahaha epic you know :(
Went to school today and ta-da! My results sucks man!!!

Alright will update next time, cya~

Chapterr 764: End.

2011-05-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

再美的爱情也都会有结局。

It's been so long since I've last posted due to exams etc.
Many things have happened but well, what's over is over! :>

So scared of results & so disappointed in myself for scoring such lousy marks for chinese, ugh. Forget it, hopefully other subjects can get better? :(

Hmm.. recently found out that actually I kinda miss some of my friends who I haven't been texting a lot, compared to the past whereby we text like almost everyday? Like eg. JordanChoi Marsya Lingxian or even people in secondary school like Darren? Ryan? etc.

Really miss texting them but I guess everyone changed & have their own stuffs to do? :) Hope will get back to like last time? Idk. Recently, there's a lot of things happening which don't really involve me. Learned to be smart, keep quiet when it's not your business. What goes in, doesn't come out~ :)

Feel so tired & drained nowadays :o Nothing to do at all but there's drama to accompany me everyday ^o^. Seriously damn pig, keep feel like sleeping -_-! Gonna sleep early tonight! :D

Chapter 763: ☮

2011-04-23T16:03:00.003+08:00

Aye. Afternoon! Feeling so tired nowadays. Tired > Moody > Bored. Argh!

Keep thinking about lots of stuffs, crazy or something? :\ Haha, exams are coming and Fayth Zheng Tinglei isn't working hard! What the hell am I thinking/doing? ~ Alot of tests this week, haha! Glad that it's over. I need HOLIDAYS! :D HAHAHHA. Okay, crazy. Exams haven't even start, heeh. Hope I do well? :) Hmmmmmmmm. pictures will describe my feelings I guess.

PEACE. ☮

Chapter 762: I LOVE CCKSS CHOIR.

2011-04-17T13:18:00.009+08:00

HELLO. I'm back after a busy week y'know? I'm a busy girl. HAHAHA.

14th April:
Okay, this is the first time I didn't post on my birthday but it's okay! It's a simple celebration but I like it :) Went to school that morning and received numbers of birthday wishes, happygirl. :) Dennis Sharen gave me the present that's from them, haafizhah, yihong. So sweet of them, hehe. Shernice also gave me a box of chocolates while Junming gave me an elephant. Thanks for all the presents & wishes. haha. that day, mummy ordered food from Thai Express & we ate at home, followed by cutting a cake which cost mum $48. hahaa :P Thanks, I really had funnnnnn, peace (Y).

15th April:
It's SYF day! hohoho. I think it's awesome. We worked so hard for that day to come & yay! We got a silver! HOHOHO :D Morning, went to school and had lessons till 10. Classmates wished me goodluck, haha. Headed to EL room, practise > lunch > dress up > head off to sota. :)

I'm super nervous, and piano screwed abit, didn't have any confidence! When we went back to school, Joshy and Yihong was like keep shouting ' gold gold gold, silver silver silver' hahaha! Went to KFC to eat with Dennis, Joshua & Yihong after everything. We received text from Cheryl that we got silver and all went so highhhhhhh :P Went up to rooftop garden and sat there, Joshua become like crazy~ grabbing yihong's thumb as a mic and then sing all the k-pop song, laugh die me siol. hhahaha! but it's funnnnnnnnn. walked home after that~

16th April, yesterday:

Woke up lateeeeeeee. 7am! Was supposed to meet Joshua at 8am and go to Cdans together. But it's okay, we're both late anyways and I have to wait for him, cause he forget to bring his stuffs. Katrina was waiting with me too :D Went to dress up immediately after we cabbed there due to the lack of time, but we realised we're not the only one who was late, HAHAHA! so happy. :P Warmed up and went for the first performance, speech day! sang our 3 songs, woohoooo. quite nervous actually, but I was happy on the stage! :)

Sec 4s went for nyaa and so, me and joshua at there zi-high? Haha. Changed to half-uni & walked around and bought drinks. Had lunch afterwards & went to change back into costume. After all, had warm ups again & went for rehearsal for SYF Showcase. Really damn funny. Cus Dennis pair up with aherm then he suddenly move away, make me laugh when singing halfway, so funny. :P Had alot of fun in the holding room tooooooooooo, hehehehe. epic moments! We jump around and play. HAHAHA! & Yihong carry joshua but fail! :P Then he and dennis go and swing joshua, damn funny sia & many more. Sharen's hair was filled with forks too, HEHEH!!! The real SYF Showcase, very nervous but really enjoyed singing on stage yesterday. Damn sad, it's Sec 4's last performance already, haiz. Hope they would come back as often as they can after they step down, arghhhhhhh. Gonna miss Haafizhah, Sharen, Dennis, Yihong the most loh :'( ! Next wed is last cca session, T__T! Don't want sia!!!!!!!!

After performance, went to change back to half-uni and eat with Joshua Yihong Dennis Jinxiang? at coffeeshop, chargrill~ hahaha. But I never eat. :P Trained back to Lot one with Yihong & Dennis, bought icecream and parted ways. Dennis accompany me walk home, so nice. HAHAHA :D Reached home at about 8plus I think. Haha. Had alot of fun. I LOVE CCKSS CHOIR. ♥

Joshua trying to act like a turtle CUS OF HIS BAG HAHAHHA!!!

LAST OF ALL. OUR FACES ON STAGE.

CCKSS CHORALE. WOOHOOOOO! (Y)

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你没有喜欢过一个人吧。真的要将一个人从心里完全删除，那只有完全不喜欢才做得到。一旦喜欢上一个人，不管是选择放弃或是坚持，那都是由不得自己。你说二选一好像很容易，但是其实根本就没有那么简单。一个人的心是很复杂的，我的心复杂到有好几百种。有的叫我期待，有的叫我割捨，有的叫我放弃，有的又叫我勇敢。你叫我仔细看看自己的心，但是我连我哪一颗心是对的，都不知道。你了解这种感觉吗？

Chapter 761: Smiling.

2011-04-10T19:27:00.002+08:00

Haven't been posting for 8 days. Keeping my blog alive not for anyone, but for myself :)

Haha, school have been fine. :) Saw my lil'sis today, still as cute as ever! :D Seriously love kids to the max luh, aww. haha. Gonna chiong finish my anime! I'm happy that my first birthday present was from mummy, Mp4 that look totally same like Ipod nano just that got camera and video. Happy enough already. :D 4 more days and it's my birthday. I just really hope that nothing would happen on that day like last year. I just wanna peacefully end that day. I hope there isn't anyone who make me sad/angry/pissed. I hope! Syf is coming too, hope everything turn out well. However, sec 4 are stepping down soon, which is something I don't want. hais, just really really hope things turn out well.

I say sorry is because I treasure friendships more than my ego, get it?

Chapter 760: After so long.

2011-04-02T17:56:00.002+08:00

"It's just, never ending. I'm holding on for that tiny hope that hardly exist."

Woke up at 11:50am. nice? Haha, so goodgirl eh! But haven't done any homework and instead, been watching drama for the whole day. Shall do them all tomorrow. I hate mondays, they're arriving so fast :(

"It's still hurting me."

12 more days to my birthday, hoping that something special happen on that day but I doubt there'll be anything special.. :) But still, I'm happy because soon, I'll be 14! & 14 is my favourite number. (Y)

Chapter 759: Study!? :O

2011-04-01T23:30:00.004+08:00

Heyheyheyheyhey! Posting, hehe! Super tired now after a long day. This week's so tiring ohmygod luh. :'( Keep having tests and all & can't wake up in the morning. hehe. Today, lesson blahblahblah. After school, went to eat lunch with sharen joshua & dennis then went for Choir. Practise practise then changed into costume and all, practise singing again & took pictures. When cca end, went to Sharen's house with dennis joshua yihong ^~^"

Had a lot of fun at her house like seriously. Our clique rockzxc ttm can! Haha, it's awesome. After that, Sharen need go out. Went to Lotone with Joshua Yihong & Dennis then Joshy went home. Went to buy food & bbt with with yihong & dennis and went to library to do homework. Can you believe that I'm so goodgirl? Haha, I know it's hard to believe but I've completed my maths & some questions of the comprehension that we all have to redo. happygirl eh. reached home at about 9plus I think? :) Tomorrow can sleep till shiok already uh, yay! (Y)

& I'm really very happy one lorh. People remembered my birthday which is so sweet of them luh :) Kelly Darren Dennis Sebastian Shernice and others. Really grateful :')

Alrights, tired alrd, goodnight!

Chapter 758: Foolishness.

2011-03-28T22:44:00.005+08:00

Proven, men are heartless & that's the fact even if you deny it.

Late for school this morning, crap. Had ultra boring lessons, but I guess it's still fine? Today Mr Lee never come, so can take a break from science which made me happier pretty much. HAHAHAHA! Naughtynaughty :P

After school, went to Zihao's house with Melvin. Bought food and ate there. Omg, his dog is so super cute please? but abit y'know.... hahaha! keep climbing my hand and melvin's. But I'm kinda scared of dogs although they're super cute. Dennis came afterwards. Heh, the dog keep make him, so funny! Melvin and Zihao was watching OnePiece while me and Dennis was playing with the dog. Awesome much. Had alot of fun with the doggy name benben :P hehe. Left the house at around 6pm & made our way home. Accompany Dennis go eat at Limbang then go under void deck and talk talk. Headed home at around 9pm like that. :]

Why should I bother about those past memories? I'm so stupid & I promise I'll live a better life.
Let the past be the past.
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I'm so glad that you're there, for even when things aren't so right now. I'm sorry that you've to go through all these with me, even when you didn't have to. No promises, no guarantee & yet you're still there.

Chapter 757: Eileen yiyi's Engagement Day.

2011-03-27T18:30:00.009+08:00

Not really in order, but let pictures do the talk! hehe.

Basically, today's my dearest aunt's engagement day. It's awesome, but I'm sad. Because if she gets married, I'll be sleeping alone in the room from then on & I am so used of her present in the house.. Well, my aunt's a great listener too as I always share my thoughts with her. She always listen to my complains too & also giving me lots of advices.

Since young, she bring me and my cousin, uncles out to play and all. Well, we have great memories like playing block-catching when we stay in ABC. Also, we went to K-box together lots of time. I feel very sad actually even though she haven't really left yet.. :(

When we were sitting down, watching them saying the vow. I think that Jovan uncle & Eileen yiyi really matched alot & she's very pretty today. :) I guess what people say are right, brides are always the prettiest! She's smiling very happily today too, hope her marriage lasts. Hehe. I hope for the best for her & even when she get married this year, hope she comes back often. (:

Yea, I really love my aunt! Hehe. & my dearest family too.

Chapter 756: We, gone. forever.

2011-03-22T23:24:00.003+08:00

Just a short post. Haven't been posting much recently due to being so busy? & of course when I've time, I would sleep like nobody's business, DUHHH! :)

Well, life have been fine recently? but for a usual me, I've lots to complain. I'm sick of my life & everyday, having the thought of what homework haven't been done. This is so stressing I suppose. Not sure what my life would be in future since now that I'm already like that? :| Whatever hmm. Class is fun with Melvin's present, someone who can fool around with me during class time! HAHAHAHA. :P Okay, I'm sooooooo-working harder k. :] Today was soooooo crazy! HAHAHA. I don't know, but wellwellwell. the new timetable sucks a big time anyways. Had PE on Monday and now, due to the change of timetable that took effect from today, I have PE tomorrow. HAPPY? NOT. Because I have to practise running the 2.4km which you know, I hate running. dislike should be a more appropriate word :) Hahaha. whateverrrrrrr, just hope tomorrow would turn out well. :) Frankly speaking, my timetable for the whole week is super boring. Hate it, I want a new term when there's Home Econ instead of D&T :'(

CCA wise, I haven't been really singing as my throat haven't recover and I guess that same goes to tomorrow's cca session. Argh, damn it please? :\ Now even coughing luh, hope to recover soon!

OKAY, I GUESS THAT'S IT, I NEED MY SLEEP, muahahaha :>

Chapter 755: Another 17th.

2011-03-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

Will post more tmr. :]
Had a great time @ yewtee cc. Badminton with Kelly Shernice Alex Darren Sebastian again! wohooo~

Chapter 754: My love story.

2011-03-15T18:45:00.012+08:00

Have you people ever feel like there's that one special person? :o

I believe people get bored reading about my 'everyday life' posts~ even myself too. Decided that today I shall talk about crush/love/relationship throughout my 13+years of life. :p surely it's gonna sound very epic but who cares.

Story 1: When I was P3, I remembered that my bestfriend and I said that whoever who sits beside that guy (JTKA), would like him. I sat beside him that year & gradually had crush on him. I didn't know what stead and all was about at that time. All I know was that I like him? Ahaha. I remembered that me, my bestfriend & JTKA always talk on phone & one of the time I actually confessed to him through phone with the present of my bestfriend. wow.. how brave can I be? :P & nothing happened after that, we remained good friends & play around during school times. We were in the same class for like 3-4 years & I liked this guy for 1 year.

Story 2: Next, during P4. That guy I had crushed on @ that time was my first crush's best friend, (JTSJ). We became good friends when we went into the same class during P4. Me, my same bestfriend & JTSJ. Also, we talked on phone. I didn't confessed through phone this time. He was a prefect, like JTKA & I was a library leader. I had duty with my bestfriend during recess & they had their duty around my area too. I was like so happy & keep playing with them. Rumours were then spreading, about me & him. He knew I liked him & eventually ignored me & hated me all of a sudden (o.o)? I swear I was like super sad at that time, cried a few times. These hurt me super much that I'm so afraid to love. I liked this guy for 1 year 10months, longest of my record. But after I changed school when I'm P6, we became friends again. Best ending I guess. hah.

Story 3: I came to know the next guy I am going to talk about now during the sad period of that year. (LJM). It was around October 2008, I know him together with my bestfriend again. ahaha. He was a prefect too. :o He was in a clique of 3. One of the guy in his clique was my Kor & another one was my Shifu. At that time, I was in clique of 3 too. Our both clique like each other (o.o). Epic right. HAHAHAS. My bestfriend (1) was with my kor. Bestfriend (2) was with my Shifu & they stead one day before me. Me & LJM texted almost everyday. At the start, I tried to use him to replace JTSJ, but ended up I really like him & my bestfriend told him how I felt towards him. During his graduation night, he asked for stead. 071108, aha. Although I was super sad cus at that time, my clique of 12 (SRC) was at mac, and all. crying because P6s are leaving. But that text made me quite happy. Our relationship was peace but boring. Yeah. I finally broke up with him on 3rd March 2009. Didn't have much feelings for him already back then since we're from different school & don't meet at all. Actually, I didn't really liked him that much too. I wasn't really sad, but perhaps a little. :] & for the rest of the year of P6, I didn't like anyone else.

Story 4: Till I got into secondary school. There's this guy, whom I really wanted to know since the first day of school. Stalked him on facebook~ I sound like a real stalker but who cares :P We became siblings & even talk on phone, walk to school together. At that time, we texted almost everyday. I don't know how come I like him so damn much also, knowing we're impossible. Every time he come back to my class, I was like so damn happy :o Ahaha, epic much. I couldn't give up on him & I've no idea why too. Now think back, I think it's so damn ridiculous & I can't stop asking myself why I even like him at that time. TSK. I won't say out the name of this guy, AHAHA. CUS IT'S SUPER RIDICULOUS -__- Back to story. After 5 months of liking this guy, someone made me forget him.

Story 5: So this someone who made me forget that guy, (STWA). -_- everyone knows who luh, whatever. Maybe this is really the first time of real relationship, where I experienced love jealousy insecurities care & all? something like that I guess. To me, this relationship is the hardest to forget because of all the things we went through & memories. I cried alotalot. & this time, because of my stupidness? I thought that he would be better without me & so I ended it on 311210 despite still having deep feelings. Yeah, I know I'm dumb because I cried after making these deicison -_- I missed the chance of getting back but then I still tried too. even though things weren't back to last time now, I think at least this is something i wouldn't forget eh? & at least, we're still good friends now. Even though we hardly really talk?

There's alot of things we can't change, alot of things we can't have, alot of things to regret about. However, even after crying, we all have to move on. :]

我并没有你想象中那么坚强。

Okay, so that's the end of all my story! HAHAHAH :D LONG ENOUGH.
But I know at least, I gave in all, even if it's just a crush at the beginning. :)

Chapter 753: A part of me.

2011-03-08T20:38:00.008+08:00

But I'm a strong girl. Smile smile be happy! Hehe! :D

Today had normal lessons. but damn tired eh! should be cus yesterday slept at 11.30pm :P hehe. naughty naughty. keep playing with melvin! hahaha, so funny sia, we damn epic! everyday have different things to laugh about~ :P during maths lesson, free period but got work to be done. Finished every homework. So guai right, goodgirl ttm. heh. :] Went to practise music with Kelly, Shernice & Zihao. After that went to lotone with kelly twinny! saw dabben twinny also. Hahaha. then walked home with kelly~ talked alot. awesome! btw people, my blog is for my own thoughts. I need no comments, thankyou. I've been smiling & laughing, all day long. Hehe. Emo? nonono! :)

Many things happened way before 1707. we knew each other as friends only at april, even after being in the same class for that past few months. yeah, lots of things happened over the time. 070710. do you remenber? the first time walking home together, first time going to that bridge. 090710, 100710, 130710, 150710 after yog @ 0052am & many other dates too. afterwards. 170710, a date to remember. the process was epic but so what, I'm happy at that time. All the insecurities started at august. We've been through so damn much and everything came to an end on 311210, 11:53pm. I thought that without me, everything would be better for you. yeah, 2nd chance, I didn't expected it to be asked. I said I needed time but after 3 months, I missed it & so now, I'm regretting. Maybe that's the end? I miss those hands that no longer held on to mine, those words that are no longer said to me. Yes, everything's different now. I've tried. Waiting now, but as well as moving on~ thanks for the 5months & 14 days. It's not about how long, but the process. For the last time, I love you. a part of me will still remember all these. :) & also, get well soon.

Chapter 752: Stand up for yourself.

2011-03-07T23:14:00.003+08:00

Doing a short post as I'm heading to bed right after this, goodgirl anot? I've been sleeping this early nowadays yo! Hehe. School was rather fun today! All thanks to Melvin didi flyaway. HAHAHA. Epic man. PE was rather, a torture to me? I sucks in running :'(

wondering, how would I even survive in 2.4km run. faint halfway? or fail all way? :p hopefully not uh! perseverance kay fztl! teehee. overall, school was fun. Lessons ended and went to do homework. Went home with Kelly Melvin Sebastian while Alex alighted at Lotone. It have been so long since we 4 together go home! hehe. It's like, really damn damn long uh quadruplets~ though it don't really exist now, but it's okay! memories. right. home - bathe - drama - learn chinese test - blog & now, sleeping! Hehe. ciaoz. I've been a happygirl! :")

it was kind of awkward to talk to you or even look at you today.
I find it hard to look into your eyes now, don't know why. It's okay. I'll be happy!

Chapter 751: Stay strong.

2011-03-06T00:10:00.001+08:00

Blogging again as I feel like it. I'm very tired, but don't feel like sleeping. Went to eat steamboat @ yewtee pt for dinner just now with Mummy, uncle + delon & dillon uncles. hahaha, I don't feel like eating one sia, too scared of steamboat after cny, heh. In my opinion, the food there wasn't really nice actually. Ate icecream with delon & dillon while mum and uncle went other place.

Gosh, so epic. we 3 shared 6 scoop icecream and some of the it not nice. So we played scissors paper stone, who lose must eat one mouth of it. Haha, damn epic. we play until like crazy pepes cus keep laughing, then people keep looking at us. HAHAHA. IT'S DAMN FUN! Mum and uncle came to find us and they went home first while we continue eating icecream.

After that, walked home with them. hehe. fun actually :] bathe and then on com. chat with Shernice Melvin & Darren on msn, texting Dennis too. Haha, was jaychou-ing (周杰倫) & ljj-ing (林俊杰). Added their songs in my playlist. :] Also, there's other songs too. Hehe. Used to dislike Jaychou actually but just now keep hear his songs, damn nice eh~ Alot of songs in my playlist really describes me. Yeah, I'm done posting! So tired, gonna go to bed soon! :]

"You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice"

:") - if you know what it means, It's my emotion now.

Chapter 750: W-E.

2011-03-05T14:02:00.003+08:00

This afternoon, woke up at around 12pm. Upon impulse, I did something stupid but I felt better because I think at least I've tried.. At least, having that courage to seek for an answer. I'm fine, I hope. Haha.

Okay, so back to topic.

Still can't forget about yesterday, so fun! Playing was all we did and did not even think of sad stuffs. Hope can play again until like that some other day, muahaha! :] Super tired though. :| Woke up & slept for 3 times, ROFL! :P Wholebody aching, so pain :'(

Actually thought that today is Sunday & I asked dennis daddy if he coming to school tmr! HAHAHA, crap. He asked if I'm awake and told me that today's saturday only. Shocked man, hehehe. He's having tuition, so currently only texting dabben twinny and chatting on msn with shernice lover + melvin di. Heh. Yeah, nothing to doooooooo! So I guess this is it :D

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Goodluck in everything.
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Time will prove alot of things, I don't know how long I can hold on.

Chapter 749: Badminton FTW!

2011-03-04T20:55:00.011+08:00

I'm soooooooooooo tired! HAHAHA. nice way to start a post. Yeah! Morning, woke up at around 5.40am. Met up with Kelly twinny and ate our breakfast at yewtee mac. Headed to CCK Stadium by walking~

Sat with shernice and co. then all the race started and all. Hey, 2/6 did good job okay! although the relay didn't win, but it's okay. Everyone did their best le ma! :) Hehe. But it's like so damn freaking hot under the sun?! After everything end, went home to take badminton racket. Shernice went with Kelly while Darren went to book court at yewtee cc. Met up Kelly and Shernice later on.

Started playing with Shernice Kelly & Darren. Later on, Sebastian & Alex came. It's super super super fun leh, everyone laugh like crazy pepes, muahahaha!! Today, tag with all of them before for games, INTERESTING! :] Kelly, Shernice, Darren, Alex & Sebastian. Super fun to the max I swear :D

Later on, time's up & so we went to neighbourhood downstair the badminton court and play. Still fun although without net, but later on, went to check if there's court with darren. He made me run a distance, zzz. then went back to CC and play. Fun still! HAHAHA. Alex damn cute loh, keep laugh! :)

Continued playing until around 6pm, Alex went home. then 6.15pm Kelly left then followed by Sebastian. Stayed with darren and he "train" me. HAHAHA. He serve netting to let me train + learn smack! So good hor, I improved! hehe, achievement. tag darren & played against another guy + his sibling. so cute sia the small sibling, ahhaa. then very funny + fun also but not as fun as with shernice kelly alex sebastian darren. Around 7pm, left the place and saw MELVIN! AHAHA, I reaction slow man, seriously. Kay, home + bathe & eat! Haha, nice. Sleeping now alrd, goodnight! Today's such a memorable day. I LOVE IT.

Oh before that, here's my favourite chinese teacher now! The one on the left, with her kid! HAHA, so cuteeeee!

LIU LAO SHI :D
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I know I have always been sensitive, I don't know why I'm always showing attitude towards you.. I don't know why. Looking at you today, I felt a distance between me and you like as if we wouldn't get back to the same like last time again. I'm feeling so confused day by day, even when I've made up my decision to wait as well as moving on. I didn't want this to end just like that. really, so confused.

Chapter 748: Wait.

2011-03-03T22:46:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's sports day, argh. Tired, lazy to go. But whatever, it's better than lessons isn't it. :] Hope it's not gonna be so freaking boring, i'm prepared! with mp3. AHAHAH. Okay, byebye.

I hope we do have second chance, too. Maybe it's too late when I made that decision. It's okay. I'll continue to wait for that exact answer. & even if that answer wasn't what I wanted, It's okay. Because I tried.

Chapter 747: Be strong.

2011-03-01T19:41:00.005+08:00

人是会被一时的冲动和决定伤害。所以为了要保护自己最好的方法还是要冷静下来好好思考 .有时看到的并不是真实的 , 千万不要被一时的情绪把自己给打倒 . 人总是人 , 虽然会被情绪牵着走 , 但是只要我们有勇气,有奋斗的精神 , 就算遇到高山, 我们还是能爬上去, 下的来. :)

This is what I came across at my uncle's formspring. Someone wrote this at his formspring and I think it's rather true.

I always assume things. Perhaps it's too late. After hearing what was said today, I was both sad & touched. I don't know. I'll wait. Even when that day comes & I've to cry, it's okay. I've tried.

Even if those have to become memories, it's okay. They'll never be replaced and will always be a part of me. After then, I'll move on. :]

I should change to positive attitude. Hah. I'm a strong girl! I hope.. :]

Chapter 746: Memories.

2011-02-27T21:55:00.003+08:00

Overdue photo, ahahaah. Everyday post quotes picture abit boring. So today, will post some overdued photos! Memories~ Hehe. As you can see, I've changed my blogskin, simple one. hehe. Also, I've uploaded photos in facebook. CCK CHOIR MEMORIES. Hahas, I think after being in choir there's more memorable memories, be it good or bad.

Starting with this few photos.

I suddenly miss how we fool around & all the laughters.

Hope that we all can go back to the same again.

& DENNIS DADDY, GET WELL SOON.
We're all waiting for you to come back!

Chapter 745: things left unsaid.

2011-02-26T22:57:00.003+08:00

I need you.

Rot at home today, nice. :| woke up, texted with dennis darren shernice. cook, ate & rest. watch tv, use com watch drama while doing homework. muahahah. :) multi-tasking. yeah. so tired now! will sleep soon. kinda sad as tomorrow's sunday. okay real crap. I hate it. going now, goodnight. this is a crap post :) shall share one cute picture! AHAHA.

CUTE OR NOT!?

Chapter 744: Tiring day.

2011-02-25T19:50:00.004+08:00

If you can't do it, don't say it.

Morning, felt like so tired that I don't wish to get out of bed. :'(
Still, went to school and had lessons. Dennis daddy is sick, tsk. so texted with him all the way. Sebastian kor having fever too! but he came to school. :'( & also, Darren twinny had allergy. Get well people! Ok, boring lessons all the way! My eyes are hurting me badly anyways.

Had cca, tiring one. Had Mr Lee's birthday celebration for the first hour of cca. Started practices and everything was alright. At the middle of practices, started to feel super tired. Don't have the energy to sing, like seriously. & my poor eyes was 3/4 closed. can't open them up, weird! After cca, meet shernice and went home with nazri & ryan. Yeah, ate Mcspicy! ahahah, watching Love Buffet now and going to sleep! Nights.

Chapter 743: Awesome life. NOT.

2011-02-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging much. Busy with study. Things are so stress now~ Saded. Test test test test test test. Hope can pass lohhhhhhhh! :'(

Cca today, not bad uh. :] I think I love cca more now! After cca, stayed back with sebastian shernice dennis junming nazri. Hehe, fun as always! Wee. headed home by bus. Eat, Bathe, Do homework, Use com for drama and now talking on phone with dennis. Haha, awesome. k. gonna sleep now! nights.

Chapter 742: I hate school!

2011-02-20T15:59:00.002+08:00

♥

Nothing much happened recently. All that happen was school study school. Hehe. Went to Limbang bridge on thursday with daddy cus we didn't want to go home so early. We found something and hid it somewhere, hopefully It'll still be there. Done my homework yesterday. I'm such a good girl right? Come praise me ok! Tomorrow there's choir, morning singsing~ I think I still love Friday most, cca! Haha. Okay, nothing much already. I hate going back to school. Few more hours! :(

Chapter 741: Tired!

2011-02-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

Chapter 740: You make me stronger.

2011-02-15T21:30:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I have to stop trusting so much. Less hurt, less pain.
Blame on my stupidness, so freaking dumb to the max.

Stop emotional! :]

Today have just been a normal school day. Yeap! :| Stayed back for Eng supplementary even though it's optional for me. Hah, I'm such a good girl? I want to go for maths sup too, but today's one was cancelled. I'm trying to work a little harder for my future, yes. Time to grow up a little more I guess.

"Everything just proves that promises are lies."

I don't know what's wrong but nowadays my attitude, my temper, everything is so out of control. Hopefully I can be back to normal soon.. Learning to be stronger now. (:

Yes you, I won't care about you anymore ok. Continue saying.
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

I guess, nothing else more to say. Tomorrow there's cca & I'm kinda looking forward to it. Hopefully everything would be fine tomorrow I hope! Haha. Oh ya, photo-taking tomorrow! :)

So tired of everything, lets put a full stop to all these.

& BE HAPPY.

I CAN DO IT.

Chapter 739: Tiredddddddddd.

2011-02-08T20:51:00.005+08:00

That's what I always say, but for most of the times, it's true. :)

Freaking tired nowadays, been sleeping early. Such a goodgirl. Couldn't get out of bed today, gosh. Yesterday so much better! Woke up at 5.40am ytd. hahaa, ate breakfast with dillon uncle and went to school. Had maths, pe all these. sprint sprint! heh. I seriously love maths more now! Yay, finally get back the love for maths, muahahah. I remember how much I used to love maths leh. Heh.

Yappppp. Today had lessons too! EL was like freeeee period uh. AHAHAH. Cool or what. After all the lessons, had the workshop. Super boring I swear! :( I very quiet also, all the while. Hehe. After that, went to mac with Nadiah Kanna Iffah. Ate and Dennis Nicholas came. chatchat. Went home @ around 6-7plus? :O Yup. gonna do homework now! So hardworking :) Tomorrow's cca & I swear it's gonna be so damn screwed up. Hackcare luh. K bai. :)

But IDGAF now :)

Chapter 738: Happy new year!

2011-02-04T22:13:00.007+08:00

Heyhey! Firstly, happy new year! :D haha, haven't been using com for the past few days so didn't blog as I'm rather lazy to blog using cousin's itouch. But now damn bored hahaha. No pictures as I'm currently using itouch to blog. For new year, it's plain boring luh like seriously! Shernice lover and Dennis daddy went to Malaysia, no one text with me, so pathetic right! :(

Hmm, received angpaos even though I didn't go and 'bai nian' hehe. This year's new year is sooo boring and I think this is the worst new year ah! Hahaha, don't know lurh. Tomorrow gonna date with my homework~ saded. Actually I think staying at home doing nothing is so much better than going to school and have those stupid tests~ Kay luh, I very lazy to type already. Bye people, enjoy the remaining two days.

I hope that I still mean something.....

Chapter 737: Sadly.

2011-02-01T15:57:00.003+08:00

Chapter 736: A day.

2011-01-28T23:57:00.004+08:00

Speak up.

Had d&t lesson today. did the electricity thingy, got A+ thanks to ryan papa, hehe. Okay, sooooooo. Had recess & I goodgirl eh, I got eat! :) Hehehe. Had Lit, Chinese then FT period and Mass reading. Lunch ~ CCA. Practised awhile then had audition, I'm so super paiseh pls. I go sing wrong key for the high note. But still, passed! heh. After cca, meet shernice sebastian nazri but seb went first. Home with melvin, buy mcspicy my love. Haha, saw belinda. Melvin went home as it's getting late ba. Talktalktalk ~ then home sweet home! :) Gosh, my Itch-rash is getting worst, so itchy. :'( hope can recover sooooon plz.

I saw this on tumblr, so sweeet!

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Ciaoz!

Chapter 735: You know..

2011-01-27T21:27:00.002+08:00

Tired uh tired! Hehez! Today, late with natasha, coincidence. saw sebastian too, haha. Super funny uh! Firstly, saw dennis daddy he like smile smile. then later walk up the stairs, saw nicholas korkor he shake his head, zz. later, saw gyan also smile smile. dotzx. Okay lar, never get late form! :| had eng, tio chased out tgt with other ppl cus never do draft :P

bleah. Geog, Recess, Maths, Science, Mother tongue followed by mother tongue supp. :>
Tired to the max. went to special room 6 for supp. when left half hour, people do presentation all those stuffs. gosh, I lie down on the table and fell asleep somehow, after all the presentation. :P I must be damn tired uh... hehez. I still know what happen at my surrounding ok! Power, haha. Lazy to elaborate already, ok. byeeeez. :)

Chapter 734: I sucks.

2011-01-26T21:13:00.004+08:00

I didn't want to make a choice, because I'll hurt either.

You two are good, too good for me. It's me, I'm not worth for all those waiting. Seriously.

I don't even know why I'm feeling sad now. after hearing those words. It's okay. I sucks, I sucks in making decision. I'm sorry, I'm good for nothing. nothing at all.

It's just like, feeling the pain, all over again.